Hello Rabbi. I've been a liar, a cheater, and I've done more than a few wrong things in my life. But I'm not afraid of having spoken up anti-Genocide of Palestinians as well as learning a lot about the whole depressing and violent history of the 19th, 20th, and 21st centuries in Palestine.
There's not a whole lot of responsibility here, and you even stated you were afraid to have signed the letter for ceasefire signed by rabbis.
My daughter was interested for a brief time in converting to Judaism. She's still seeking a religious home. I am myself, a Christian (former Baptist deacon) and daughter of a Jew.
I used to have a very high level of respect and admiration for Judaism and Jewish people. I believed that Israelis were heroes, building a new home for those so grievously harmed, surviving a horrific period of persecution and slaughter. I don't think that any more.